Oh well

I guess things can and have been worse. My day and nights are completely reversed. I fall asleep at 11:30p.m then wake at 2:30a.m play on the computer watch early morning news. At 7:30a.m I make coffee for mom feed the dogs eat breakfast. At about 10:30 a.m I go to sleeep till about 4:00p.m. I get about 8 hours sleep but it is spaced out. The longest period I am up is in the early, early morning. I have been feeling a bit off my blood surgars are ok not great, I have not been eating great either. My fianances are out of wack I overdrew my account on several transactions cost me a fortune it is affecting my budget for the rest of the month and its only the 7th of july with 31 days this month, great. I had made some friends on facebook from different parts of the world. I figured this would be a neat way learning about different cultures. I have been corasponding with a girl name Nhel from the phillapines, It was going great, Yesterday she instant messaged me we were texting back and forth she asked if I had a maid I said no, thinking nothing of it went on to another subject, She then said she would like to apply for the job if I trusted her. I dont need or want a maid nor could I afford one. It was a akward situation instead of dealing with it head on I basically bailed said I had to go. A old time family friend who has been suffering from alzheimers disease has been put into a rest home a section reserved for dementia. I am so sad about this Ruth and Dave have been friends of our family since I was in jr. high school. I was in confirmation with Mary-Jane there daughter. Dave spoke at my wedding on behalf of my father and to this day still wears some of my dads shoes to church once in a while. Ive heard Ruth has started getting mean towards Dave I am sure she is real confused. It makes me real sad. My Dog Nick is going blind he has had eye problems for about a year and his sight has progressivly gotten worse. I have been getting water blisters on my good leg in a couple of spots I thought I should drain, Now its a wound the size of a fifty cent piece. I have read up on the blisters they are caused by bad circulation and retained edema [water] I have to be carefull of infection. I being mrsa positive it could mean disaster. I really dont want to loose my other leg. There are plenty reasons I am feeling a bit down but like my dosing nurse at the clinic says" whats next? Bring it on" boy to have that attitude would be like Pat Milliken would say"Good times" I will keep plugging along I am not ready to check out yet. I guess it could be worse.

next time

NEXT TIME Next time I will not be in such a hurry. Next time i will take my time growing old. Next time I will listen to those I trust. Next time I will learn from those smarter than I. Next time I will slow down and enjoy the small stuff. Next time I will not worry about the small stuff. Next time I am going to be honest with myself and others. Next time I am going to love without looking over my shoulder. Next time I am not going to worry about what others think. Next time I am going to enjoy every step of falling in love. Next time I am going to see when one has fallin out of love with me. Next time I will know just because it hurts it does not mean its always bad. Next time I will know just because it feels good that its not always a good thing.Next time I will know friends can leave but never replaced.next time Ill know just because one is gone today they can be back tomorrow.next time I will be quick but not in a hurry. next time I will realize that sporting events are just games. next time I will love without the worry of being loved. next time one asks how are you doing I will be honest. next time I ask how some one is doing I will really listen. next time I will live for today and not fret about yesterday or worry about tomorrow. next time I will probably do things the same way I always have but next time i will think first.